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I'm having a down day at work. more or less because I don't feel like doing anything. So I decided to check in here. OMG!!!! I haven't been on in forever!!!!! So lets see, why have I not been on here? well, I am super busy usually at work. I am now full time and im learning a new system at work. oh, where do I work? i am an optician whose company is getting ready for the technical age of electronic filing. and yours truly is in charge of learning the new system, training the other employees and making up a manual for future employees. fun right???? not really. at home (when am i home?) my computer is broke. don't have the money to buy new one yet. pretty much have no time for myself, and time is going by too fast. ill do my best though

my wonderful husband

this weekend was a horrible one. saturday was the worst of the 2 days. without going into detail, more or less because i dont want to go there. i guess you could say a blast from the past occured. someone from the past is rearing their head. bringing back with them new details and unpleasant memories. i spent the afternoon and evening heading down a dark path. one i didnt want to be on. my poor hubby wasnt quite sure what to do to comfort me. although his presence is usually enough. finally around 10 p.m. he ordered me to get dressed (in a polite way). he was taking me out. normaly when we have dates we are home by 10. we are to old and tired to stay out til the wee hours of the morning. he took me to karioke night at our favorite hang out. and we talked. and then he sang Honeybee by Blake Sheton to me. (thats a country song. im sure its on youtube if ya wanna hear it). he pulled me out of my terrible mood, even made me smile and laugh. he reminded me that sometimes the past needs to stay in the past. especially when its a painful one. i agreed. so the past is dead and im appreciating my present and looking forward to the future with him, our children, grandchildren and all the members in my family that have always been there for me.
thank you my true love for loving and being there for me.

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Well, we made it through the storm. Its now wensday afternoon. all is calm. although very dreary. not just in the sky and weather, but in moods. we were very fortunate. we didnt lose power and no damage done. our lights flickered, a lot, but stayed on. at my parents house, 10 or so minutes away, had a tree limb fall on their shed. and they lost power for roughly 24 hours. they were fortunate too. we went to check on them as well as my sister in law and her family. they really were lucky. although they lost power, and still dont have power, they were lucky. if you drove around their section, the devastation was heartbreaking. it seemed as though everyother house had a huge tree on top of it. vehicles were smashed under fallen trees. entire streets were blocked by huge trees. thankfully, her house and vehicles were spared. so were they. also heartbreaking were the pictures ive seen of several New Jersey shores. gone. Atlantic City, gone. our favorite shore spot, Seaside Heights, gone. no more boardwalks, anywhere. Seasides famous pier that had the roller coasters and ferris wheel now float away in the atlantic ocean. homes destroyed. neighborhoods covered in water or sand. an historic event took place. something that has never happened...ever. the ocean met the bay. if you are a sentimental shmuck like me, tears would fill your eyes seeing all the devastation that i have seen these past few days. and even though my little corner of the earth, was not hit hard, power is out all around us. to drive down the streets at night with no street lights working is very eerie. i dont think my teenage children grasp what has happened. they have seen some of the pictures and heard the stories of what happened to Levittown, but i dont think they quite understand the reality of what took place. my 14 year old does more today when i took her through levittown. in N.Y.C. more that 50 homes burnt to the ground because help could not reach them. an areal shot of that neighborhood is devasting. so much destruction. Gasoline here is like gold. very long lines are formed at the 3 stations ive seen open for the past 2 days. and schools everywhere are still closed. and halloween...postponed. but through everything that has happened, we are still here. counting our blessings. and we will rebuild

waiting on the storm

its 10:30 sunday night. and all we have heard about for days is Hurricane Sandy. how destructive she will be. as everyone else that lies in her path, i prepared. plenty of food and drinks. snacks too. we have asprins, bandaids, peroxide, and lets not for get about toilet paper. batteries, candles and gas in our cars. my daughter wanted to go to a halloween scary thing tonight. i had to tell her no. i dont like doing that. but better to be safe. since they have change the timing of land fall. it is currently very windy out. a liitle rain this afternoon. but its not here just yet. tomorrow will be the worst. up north in pa, we usually dont get a lot of "bad" weather. but in just over a year we will of had 2 hurricanes and an earthquake. i used to say that we lived in the safest area as far as weather goes. and we probably still are. but that could all be changing.
my husband says that he blames nasa. and thats partly true. lets send another space ship up and continue to destroy the ozone layer. but i also believe its Gods way of saying that we need to chill out and take better care of Earth. when we miss treat her Mother Nature gets angry. and you wont like her when shes angry......

ill get there yet

so we have been in our new home for almost a month. i have about 7 boxes left to unpack. and its all stuff that i dont know what to do with. knicknacks, candles. that sort of thing. over the weekend we bought a new kitchen table. i decided that it really needed a center piece. it now has one. looks and smells pretty. i love using sented candles. its soothing. new slip cover and throw pillows on the sofa. and now im thinking something needs to go in the space between the windows and the ceiling. for now the smells of the candle and the dinner that is in the oven are filling the house. now if i can get these darn hot flashes to go away, it would be a perfect day

Faces in the Window

Originally posted by mrsefaw at Faces in the Window
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I have 3 trees outside my bedroom window. they are old and leaning. On some nights, when it is still outside, I lie in my bed and look out the window. If the leaves are just right, and you look carefully, you can make out faces. On some nights I can see up to 3 faces. One is always a front view. It is always smiling. The others are profile view. If there is a breeze outside, the faces seem to be nodding their heads and sometimes their mouths move. As if they were having a conversation amongst themselves. I started to wonder if they were spying on me. wait...leaves dont spy...do they? When your tired, your mind can play tricks on you. This started to creep me out.
Over time I got used to seein my night time visitors. After all, if I can get used to a empty rocking chair rocking, whats a few leaves. i came to several conclusions

1) I have an overactive mind and should just go to sleep when im tired..
2) the leaves represent evil beings. Laughing and talking about me. Waiting for me to fall asleep so they can haunt me in my dreams.
3) the leaves represent angels. Loved ones from my past. looking down at me and smiling. watching over me till I fall asleep.

I prefer to think of it as the later.

Faces in the Window

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I have 3 trees outside my bedroom window. they are old and leaning. On some nights, when it is still outside, I lie in my bed and look out the window. If the leaves are just right, and you look carefully, you can make out faces. On some nights I can see up to 3 faces. One is always a front view. It is always smiling. The others are profile view. If there is a breeze outside, the faces seem to be nodding their heads and sometimes their mouths move. As if they were having a conversation amongst themselves. I started to wonder if they were spying on me. wait...leaves dont spy...do they? When your tired, your mind can play tricks on you. This started to creep me out.
Over time I got used to seein my night time visitors. After all, if I can get used to a empty rocking chair rocking, whats a few leaves. i came to several conclusions

1) I have an overactive mind and should just go to sleep when im tired..
2) the leaves represent evil beings. Laughing and talking about me. Waiting for me to fall asleep so they can haunt me in my dreams.
3) the leaves represent angels. Loved ones from my past. looking down at me and smiling. watching over me till I fall asleep.

I prefer to think of it as the later.

busybee

I've been very busy lately. We have recently moved to a new home. That alone is stressful. We had a lot of things going on with that move. We still have boxes to unpack, but it's getting there. I also haven't written anything for my book. Still have a folder if already written material at my sisters, that she edited. But i think i came up with a title. And a story behind the title. . To be continued.......

moving...

My oldest daughter has graduated high school. she is enrolled at the community college. she works full time at the local rite aid. and was recently promoted to shift manager. i couldnt be more prouder of her. she acclomplishes everything she sets her mind to.

for instance. she enrolled at the technical high school in 8th grade...for collision repair. i believe i have stated this before. i had my doubts about it. wasnt sure if she could do this. she was pretty much the only girl in her class. she not only passed this class, but did it with honor roll grades. and recieved a scholarship. she also recieved an award for being top in her tech shop. she beat out all the boys!!!
in the fall she will go to college for special education, working with special needs children in early education. and i have no doubt she will succeed in this.
she is moving out in less than a month to live with my sister. i have mixed emotions on this. i know every child needs to spread their wings and soar. im just not ready. we have always been very close. although she will be living only 15 minutes away, it will not be the same here without her "lving" here.
her reason for moving..my sister has ms. there are times when she has difficulties. her washer/dryer are in the basement. sometimes going down those steps can be a challenge. especially with a hamper in your hands. My daughter is moving in to help her around the house, as well as companionship. my daughter is very close to her aunt. and i know this is a good thing for both of them.
i will be sure to have several boxes of tissues ready for moving day, i will need them

now thats a book

I have been caught up in the whirlwind that is Fifty Shades. after hearing so many friends and news broadcast about how good this book is, I bought the first of the trilogy. Fifty Shades of Grey. I could not put it down. after reading book 1, I purchased the other 2 books in the trilogy. a lady in the book isle saw my selection, a discussion was formed. she said she read them and that i would be disappointed. this nagged at me. why would she say that and possibly ruin it for me. i tried to block out what she said, and read. i bought the 2 books on a thursday, and finished both monday morning. and i wasnt disappointed. im am anxously awaiting, along with the rest of us females who were enticed, for the 4th book. and like others, when they put out a sketch of what Christian Gray might look like, i was not satisfied. it was not at all what i had imagined in my head. and others also felt the same. as a matter of fact, all comments from friends, strangers, and people who responded on websited and broadcast agree.

if only i was that talented